Hi thar!

So im very tired. Im not a little tired, a lot. Its a good tired though. I went to work, dragged self out of house to slave over stupid transcribing. I had the words "two thuds" written on my arm. I was transcribing this interview where this guy was talking about how "two thuds" or sixty six percent of children with impairments in the UK are part of the mainstream curriculum. I dont think mainstream was the word, but its not like im going to call it the "normal" curriculum.

After work went to milkshake's house and sat around as he and wholemeal made some music. felt inadequate because i dont sing (properly or good) and i cannot play an instrument. I tried to learn how to play teh guitar at some point but im very much not good at it. I have tiny hands. then we kinda just sat around outside and look at milkshake's cats. they are very strange. then went home, knocked out, cooked and the usual.

G'day!

Well... hi there. Next to nothing happened today (SHARKY I WASNT TALKING ABOUT YOUR BLOG YESTERDAAY!!) apart from work in the arvo. Oh, and now I can say what I wanted. Im no longer "solo". The sad thing is the time frame... Hes leaving the country in a while. I told my mam today and she basically said "Hey, its ok... seeing as he'll leave, seeing as I dont want you mooning when you have exams". The thing is... Im kind of hurt by the fact that she can only see the whole thing as a distraction for me. Im not silly, and I do acknowledge the fact that it could be, but Im very sure in what I have to do. I know that I have exams to prepare for, and that I have work to take care of, and that I have school and all of the above... I just wish that.. I dont know. Im 18 now, Im sure she'd be happier if I picked up smoking or something... Then we'd have something in common or something. I dont know... I just wished that she'd trust me for once.

So. I havent really got much to talk about. I dont want to talk about the relationship Im in, because so far there really isnt much. Im really happy... But.. honestly I dont give a damn about the internets reaction to anything that has happened in it. Im taking this as a good sign. Ive always been worried about "what other people know" in everything else. I didnt want people to know things about me, or anything. I was able to keep secrets and its... unhealthy. I mean, sure there are always things that are private and whatnot... but... you know..those kind of secrets are never good to keep. Because theyre going to show up and bite you in the backside. I spose. So yes. Nothing happened today apart from me going to work for a while and me telling my mam. X is up! :D

Happy Monday!

So... hi there!Im quite bored. Ive only just had my coffee kick in. The coffee I finished what.. an hour ago? Stupid coffee. All these delayed reactions and whatnot. Is so silly.

So i was reading a blog of this person who I know, I wouldnt say that shes a friend.. because... I dont exactly.. Well.... Honestly? I really dont like her. As a person. Sure, it sounds bitchy.. but is true. I made a list of things that I have to get done during the semester break... It goes something like:

• get a lamp
• find brother a fishbowl for his birthday
• Finish my EE
• get drivers license thingo
• get my netbook fixed
• make my bedroom ceiling less boring

So yes... I have to do a few other things.. but I cant remember what they are. Ah well :)

So... :D

This is what i said (the "im going to drink water") one art class
i walked outside and it rained so i stuck out my tongue.. :)

Im happy... I guess. Actually, no. I know. I dont really feel like saying much about it at the moment, but Im sure Ill inform in a bit :D

So, I was watching Memoirs of a Geisha and I realised that IB English has messed with my mind. I saw the movie in a different light, and I felt that I now longer liked Sayuri. Shes the main chick... So yea. hehe...

I have no idea whats happening with the whole U thing... U is a silly letter. And I couldnt think of anything... However... I have to do W tomorrow.. and thats already planned :D

I think theres a similar problem with V... is lame.. and yes. Im a bit too.. tired to figure out what to put there. So have a comic! Hehehe.... :D

I have nothing much to say

Except hi! I took a pill, now my headache is gone for a bit.. Im feeling a little stressed, about tomorrow mostly. I have this stupid english oral commentary and i wanted to prepare for it away from home, but wasnt allowed to. Ah well. I have green tea and socks. :D

Mister Sandman.. bring me a dream...

So, Just so everyone knows, I still have that evil headache. Thats three days in a row now. Maybe is because Im s**t-scared of getting my semester report. I know Im not getting any A's. As a result of this headache, Ive avoided bright colours today. Also, my paint brushes have gone walkabout. My grandmother is staying over and she decided to put them somewhere. She too has gone walkabout so I have no idea where my brushes are. I apologise for not updating last night, but I was unconscious. I fell asleep at school, so missed the 4pm bus (however, this was also due to a major case of CBF a cause de the tiredness). This resulted in me watching the music part of the major CAS project and feeling very lazy indeed. I was perked up by some chili chicken chow mein, at around 6, and I apologise to my family for being late and not calling. My brain had been off. I also fell asleep in the taxi and gladly was accompanied so I didnt sleep past my stop. I also had to check some movie plans.. but my call was missed. So was woken up later by a call back and I think I might be better on the phone when Im half awake. To be honest, Im horrible on the phone. Im not used to calls, and I think theyre a horrible way to communicate. You cant see the callers/talkers face. Is so impersonal...

So R is about how much I hate the idea that the world is either black or white (im not being colourist , nor racist, Im just saying...). Im crazy, but i love to just curl up and read sometimes. The S is me trying to put forth an idea, but failing because of the throbbing in my head. Sorry bout that.. Anyway, I highly recommend Pomplamoose. I love the song Mr Sandman... I guess its mostly because Im in love with the Endless, Dream in particular, but its a good song in general. Very chill. I also like the singers voice. Is very noice. Hehe... And on the topic of the lols, I think everyone should see this. Its that guy! And hes punching people! And there are zombies! Is very silly and good for the lols. And thanks to my mother of a headache, I give you fact 3! I think it might be obvious, if you follow me (like my awesome reader Skippy :D ) or have been for a while, or if you actually know me (like Milkshake and Salmon and the lot...to whom Im sure have tallied up the most views of my blog..). I learnt about the migraines when I was around 8. The family doctor was very sympathetic, and I had to depend on my favourite pill, Nurofen. I live in the constant fear that Nurofen turns out to be a placebo.
Id be so sad. Sure, there are many things that trigger a migraine, for me is mostly my freak outs on the inside as well as dehydration or just that whole uber heat thing. My hair is no help for the latter, being the huge heavy lump of a thing it is. Im going to stop feeling ill and just go and find something like painkillers. Ive lain around enough today. No more uber sleeps. Im sure Ill be back to the regular posting :)

I was sick today.

I stayed home. I was bored all day. Sure, illness got to me and i spent most of my day lying down feeling nauseous, wishing that migraines never existed. I really have nothing to report, because of my aimless day. Well, apart from i made pancakes and am about to make some stir fry beef. Well.. when i get around to it. I also wrote a poem! Yes, thats my gallery of some stuff that i like to draw and whatnot. Its been around for a while... and isnt exactly popular. Ah well, i figure is a place to bung all my stuff together. So yea... Perhaps I will have more to say tomorrow.

Im well on my way!

So I have a new letter for you all! This has never happened, though. And i have a classic case of CBF so cant really draw something worthwhile. I was uber lazy today too. Ive eaten a pop-me cup noodle thing, and have had a frozen coke. I also watched a bit of the Losers, on a silly little dvd. Was okay, but... Not my thing. Also, cant have been that good, because I fell asleep. And, despite my long day I dont think i wouldve fallen asleep if it were a good movie.

Look at the adorable ninja turtle!! I love it, so cuuute! kawaii desu ne! Hehe.. thats the only japanese i know. Oh and look! Ive started another daily. I call it the fact files. I have this one: I may be a girl, but im not a fan of flowers. Sure, theyre nice and all, but i love cacti. Theyre so much prettier, and you dont have to look after cacti really, except to water them every second or third day. Nothing much to report... cept... no, I dont think I will. I guess i need to sort out what it is before I can say what it is. So.. :)

Im really real nao.

Now Ive had the party, the breakdown, and I have decided to try to figure out something : who i am. Yes, yes. I know it sounds silly, but after the breakdown which was after my party (which was awesome -THANK YOU FWENDS :D) where I was a complete retard, I realised just how lost I am. Now, Im not going to harp on about it too much, or at least Ill try not to. I know Im only 18, but.. there are things I wish I knew. I wish I knew what I wanted to be. I wish I knew what Im good at (apart from being a complete retard...) and I wish that I could find a way to be happy. I dont need to have money, or have an awesome job, or that prefect guy or anything in particular. Well.. I dont think, I want to know what Im doing though. Im completely lost. Ive harped on enough... havent i?

Well, Last night was awesome. Some of the gang were running on fiji time (that means late) and the bubbly was opened a little after half of the gang showed up. After the nibbles and a few drinks had been drunk, i opened my presents. I got a pretty little perfume bottle, a bracelet i wore as an anklet, some comic books (with the worlds nicest letter), a mix cd, some tea, a bangle and some paints, a cake,... and a hot bread kitchen tee shirt that was in a big box that also had some rocks in it. It was funny. There was pizza, cake (that i fed almost everyone cept Robot cuz shes a meanie bukkit) and sangria. Then there was a long time of just hanging out. I ended up losing my cardigan for a shirt. Sure, the shirt is nice and all, and uber comfy, but... my mam wasnt too impressed.

Maybe, everyday, Ill post something about me. Well, something about me that makes me who i am and maybe that would help me figure out who i am... because ill be able to see it. I dont know.. Ill see, shall i?

I have to post 3 letters at a time now.

Im eighteen now :) I didnt get to post something yesterday because i slept all afternoon and night, apart from the occasional interruption of calls from Milkshake and a few strange texts from his friend Wholemeal. The texts were got at around midnight, and then at 3... was strange. Most of the morning, Ive had my phone buzzing with birthday texts and a few calls, and so on. So am just sitting at home waiting for a cake. So Ive been working on my EE, including the writing of 3000 words in one night, and dying the next day, and I am now sure that I will be able to survive university. And speaking of, I now plan to get my drivers licenses, and next year Im going to save up (after finding myself a nice little part time job in some kind of retail whassis) towards a car. Yes, im going to toil away, which means continuing to live with my mother until i get said car, or something... But im serious about this car thing. Im planning on staying in Fiji for the next 3 years, so I like this idea of long term goals. :)

Tonight, i get to mourn the death o my childhood and welcome adulthood. Im very excited. I cant wait until tongiht, when i put on my little black dress and consider wearing my high heels and giggle as i do little twirl type things. Im sure ill get a few presents, and im excited about that, but mostly i cant wait to be able to sit down, with my friends, and talk about random things, giggle over sangria, and just.. be. i do realise that it all sounds a tad bit lame, but thats that. Also, the reason why im posting 3 at a time is because: a) i missed yesterday, b) im putting up todays, c) tomorrow i might be dead to the world, or more likely vice versa, d) i had them so im posting. so yes. happy birthday to meee! :D

Im quite tired, but then again what else is new?

I have something big to do. I am going to have to rush through it, and the only one i have to blame is myself. Im exhausted. I didnt sleep much last night... because of certain people who i am acquainted with, and i dont blame the person. I had to deal with school after that, then a little bit of work-related things, then a mini crisis of a friend (i hope youre okay now, dude, if youre reading this..). on top of all this, im going to die because school is lame.

Im very much looking forward to my birthday, and im sure it wont crash and burn (as earlier predicted by my paranoid self). I dont think that i care any more about my mam being there. i love her, and im glad shes part of my birthday. Im also glad she knows s\who she knows, because she might let some of my friends (and i) go out to look at the clubs. im not a club person, seeing as i inherited the inability to dance from my father. hehe, the benefits of being half caste are plenty. Lacking the ability to dance : not a benefit.

I cant be bothered to open my google reader to find the pretty pictures of the day, because im a lazy git. also, the opening of it would rape my brothers computer and the internet speed would go from a chicken crossing the road to the speed as which a rock moves. and when i say rock, i mean the big ones. that are stuck in the ground. they cannot be moved. ever. im sure you all get the idea (whoever you all are). So as a final offering, i give an image im fond of, because it is funny. i may have posted it before, but who cares? :D

K, stoves and a mouse

Good day. I am fine :) I bought contacts today so i can walk around without my retarded glasses on. Yes, they are retarded. I blame the silly tape on them and whatnot. Is very silly looking. Ok, so how was my day? Was okay.

So I had school today. I went to class, mucked about, ate some food, felt tired, and rolled around for a bit. Then i went to town, bought contacts, had a mocha, had some coke, rolled around the back of a cab and got home. Then i showered and dressed and now im here. in front of the pc. what a gripping life i do lead.

How cute is that mouse?? I want one. Just so i can look at it and squee :) I really dont have anything to report. So maybe ill muse a bit... NAH. hehe... I was wandering around town with Salmon and Jamesa and we walked all around Tappoo City (it is much lamer than MHCC, there is no food there) and looked at stuff. I realised that i love looking at stoves more than i do looking for clothes. I swear, if i could, id buy things for my kitchen rather than get new clothes. Im strange, and AWESOME. ok, i think im going to go eat soon. kthnxbai :D

So hi. I have a really bad headache. Its from the stupid ASTs I had today. well.. theyre standardizing tests and they suck. I dont like their silly questions that make my head hurt. Here, have J.

So apart from the epic headache and the visit to that school over there, the ASTs and the sore nose, Im okay. Im awesome in fact. And doan ch'all know it? Hehe... my head hurts :(

So.. I havent got much to say really. Im tired, hungry and have a frickload of things on my mind. and by frickloads i mean school, money and sleep problems. damn i miss sleep. /sigh.

happy public holiday.

So yes, Its a public holiday and ive been paralyzed by cramps all day, and my freezing feet are no help. After i eat (ive cooked already...) i have to do a frickload of emergency research for my portfolio due tomorrow. I know, I know, its all my fault for leaving it all till now, but ive been busy.. sleeping and stuff. Also, nausea had been hanging around, and now i know why. Its not really comforting knowing why, but at least now i have something to swear at.

So yea. Im going to suck it up, the nonsense of my becoming older. its my first party in a while, and my mam is going to "supervise". Shame, yes, but im not going to do anything about it. Shes my mam, and shes giving me this, so im going to respect her and be grateful for what im getting :)

So.. Hi. Today is H day. I did this this morning, but havent been able to blog until now. Ive had to do things. Like go to church, movies, sleep, eat, shower, the usual. i love happy memories.

So Im a little tired, and a little bored, and hardly hungry, but I have to get clean, scoff something down my throat and look presentable, because will have to go to a 3 hour movie type thing with my mam and try not to die from boredom. Firstly, its going to be in a language i cant understand, and i hate going to hindi movies because i get looked at funny by all those "proper indians". so yea. Now i go away. and leave you with an obama cupcake :)

Im so darn awesome.

First of all, here is G! Yay G! And thank you to the anonymous poster. It means a lot that theres some gang out there that like my blog. It makes my awesome day awesomer :)

Today, my mam got back from DC. She gave me my first (proper) designer dress. It's my first (proper) little black dress. Im over the moon. Not only that, I was late to work today (I called ahead of time, Im not silly) because I was coffee-ing with my Mam when she says something like "we go and yet your nose pierced now?". So we did :) And I am now with a nose piercing. Im so darn awesome.

So I was stuck at work, by myself, for four hours, and got to drawing, and thats where these three comics came from. I had had coffee (intentional repetition? oh noes!) so I was feeling a little energetic. So yes. I hope the comics make sense :)

Finally, The A Team movie was very awesome. I like Murdoch. Hes crazy awesome. And when one says crazy, one means it. So yea, Im going to facebook a little then sleep like nobody's business. Good night, Internet :)

No, you arent at the wrong blog, i changed it all to purple

So if you havent noticed, the blog underwent a makeover. blogger was all like: "hey we have new templates!". so i changed it all to a less emo blog, made it a lil bit happier, with just a touch of awesome collage-ing with the new banner. Note the actual, real me in the bottom right hand corner of the new banner :)

So i managed to do both E and F today, because Ive been at home. The other two images are pretty, and inspirational, top and bottom respectively (well, geisha and NPH respectively :D )

Im feeling a little woozy

So i didnt go to school today. I felt very... ill. that is to say that nausea caught up with me. I did manage t do todays drawing. Yay for elephants! (like megh). Who is Megh? Meghdutt is the elephant i made up in the books i made for art. Technically, saying his name spoils all four of the books (hehe im so proud of myself). the story is that he goes in search of a name, and gets given one at the end. hes a very silly little elephant, but you have to admire his dedication. he ends up in an alternate dimension and gets freaked out by a creepy evil elephant, gets picked on by Durga, helps out a lady because her washing line had fallen down and gets to meet god.

I was flipping through Vanity Fair (march 2010) and found some article about the 100 women who were responsible for the colouring of practically everything in Snow White (the Disney one). I then found of that they had this interesting book. I vote that everyone sees it. Its a cute little 20 page type thing, with pretty little retro (well, it was around wartime so wasnt retro then) drawings. is very noice :)

Damn you Blizz. You've made the best part of WoW into a mug. Yes, i love murlocs. Theyre adorable and cute and awesome and although im sure many have died at my own "hands", i cant get over the baby ones. theyre too cute. See the pic on right for the adorableness.

So have a sign for the lulz. Lastly, i have little to say. I give you my worse nightmare, and yes, it is tetris related. So have a good day, readers. I hope y'all have a good weekend :)