not so happy xmas? no thanks, brain.

its coming up to christmas and i need to kinda get out of this mood. christmas to me is decorating the tree the night before, putting all the presents under there and watching children tear at their presents with excitement while babehs roll around in the paper and everything else.

wholemeal has been uber busy of late, with the last bit of exams and life just keeps happening. its scary. i dont want it to, in case i miss something while i watching everything happen.. and i just dont know where everything is going and fingers crossed next year will be better than this one.

hope for better days, and i know the new year will be a disappointment in every way shaoe and form because welcoming 2011 was amazing. it was lame, at mcdonalds, and neither wholemeal nor i knew when it was precisely midnight, but atsome point in between the fries and my cheap coffee, we kissed happy new year and im sure we made alex turner proud :P

this year will be family, so not bad just different, and im going to be two decades old. i know where i quite fit just yet, so im not going to worry about trying to put myself in somewhere that doesnt feel quite right. better alone than in the wrong place.

but now its still 2011, its still december, and theres time to figure everything out. at least try to.

Just another update

So Let's see what's been happening... And just a heads up it includes a new dog, sleepy drawings and my messy table :)

The two doggies of the house... Max and... (shudder) Trixie... My mother named her.. /sigh

Messy Table :D

I was starting to get a little tired...

fwoooshhh

Oh noes what happened to the pencil??

The speech bubble isnt pointing to the right place... ><

Hand drawing a hand drawing???? 

yes. That tired

Also : three sleeps and i get to grab hold of my favourite loaf of bread :D

Blergg

So i havent doing a lot... hahah just kidding, ive been kinda super busy so sorry for the lack of updating  :)

have some of my recently shareable stuff. the top is something i did when sleepy and a little happy off markers.. i tend to put my face really close to the paper i draw on which results in my tiny tiny drawings

teh second is a stencil i did to show my baby cousin how stencils work. i used a make up ad, and drew on parts with her

and teh third was also for her, the powerpuff girls. she was all like "theyre like from powerpuff girls z!" and i was sorta like "yeeees. ive never seen it but yeeeees"

shes so damn adorable.

anyway, ciao and maybe more will be seen

MAAAAYBEEEE

16 days now...

hairclips, a ring.... black and white is handcore...

Back from easter break, and boy do my feet hurt! Actually, I have absolutely no idea whatsoever why my feet hurt. I havent actually done much...

For some reason my Ma and I are now watching four weddings and a funeral..

And.. let's see... Im tired :)

Ciao and enjoy the stuff i bunged in here :D

doodles... note the bottom one - which is wholemeal playing with a cat

ive been busy

so. there has been a lot of doing stuff, with work and trying to keep up with everything else. school is rushing forward and by school i mean uni... and im so tired. im going to have another cup of tea.

i also got a new phone. its fancy. i barely know how to use it. but its fancy. so yes.

cheery bye :)

Im tired...

Well, I want to blog. Im watching Paper Heart.. yes, I dont know if i can stand michael cera or the yi chick, but the little bits wit the dolls and stuff is uber cute

aw silly comics.. its not mine, clearly, but i loved it when i saw it. im really... yes. im busy with stuff, and the only drawings that im doing is work .. its odd. Well, not work yet, but i hope it will be.

ponyo! look at the pretty picture :) makes me miss wholemeal. mostly cuz i made him watch the movie. of course he thought it was adorable and stuff, and i think his favourite part was the head-hugging one. heheh.. that movie was too cute.

you want to know whats wrong with the above picture? its a skinny body. its annoying. its like suuuuuuuure, youre totes fat fuckwit(!). annoying. yes.
and to end, a kwoot puppy. max is home more. im happy. so yes. cheery bye. :)

lazy :D

this movie was too cute..

So Im lazy to do work. Im tired. I dont know why. Ive drawn a whole page; penciled, inked.. but im scared to colour it. Im also bothered by the people in my house. I have TLOTR though. so Ill watch that.

blowing out candles is srs business

If you havent picked up, i dont think ive mentioned by wholemeal went back. it was his first day back at uni today. im jealous that he gets to be in a place covered in snow. but its ok. its cold here too.

dios de los muertos? is that how its spelt? so purty :)

Im tired. More wasabi peas for me. Im hungry still. I wish there were noodles at home. I wonder why all these bits feel like texts. I thnk ive forgotten how to write.

i am not a ninja. i couldnt handle the solitude.

Okay. Food time :) Cheery bye. Expect another update with a doodle :D

fuck that. whats he doing playing games when youre prolly lonely (is why texting ya?).

Long time no blog!

Hey internet, hows it going? Ive been busy and my internet has been incredibly gay. That is to say that my internet will neither let me look at nor update my blog. It is lame. So, very many sorries for the lack of Fifi action. Oh and guess what i found out? Someone i had to talk to, all to his face and whatnot, figured I as retarded and wrote essays like a blond, until he remembered that he had read my blog. Ergo, there was an element of shame on my part. Real people arent supposed to real this nonsense are they?

So its term break. But that also means morning french and wonderful extra mathematics :D Yes, im hopelessly lame an am looking forward to getting to do extra maths. Shoot me now, if youd like :) And... I guess... I dont have much to say. Ive had school, ive been sleeping... and oh, i watched all of the first season of glee yesterday when was buggering about at home. I was bored, it was there and it was something i could sleep to. Yay aimless rolling about on the couch doing nothing. I should seriously go do something useful. Yeah. Cheery-bye :)

Still no comics... but its okay!

This is going to be one of those real posts. What does that mean? It means Im going to put actual effort into this post. Why havent I been doing that lately? Let's just say that Ive been... tired. In short, I have been actually tired, but I have also been facewalling because of school stress and Id really like it if Monday never comes. Reason shall not be mentioned. Honestly, there are several, but I dont want to think about them. Okay, I was trying to do this blog properly, then I got a call and I was all distracted. Damn you lack of being able to hold phone to ear with shoulder and type. Ssh... dont judge me for my limited multitasking skills. Limited because I can multitask, but not talking. I like to talk. Its attention consuming. Or something like that. Yeah.

Oh noes aimlessness!

Okay. Im hungry. I think Im going to go and do the supermarketing with my mam after work... which Im at now. I have no internet at home.. so its not like I had a choice. Choice about what you ask? Exactly. Yeah that's right. You better be confused. It was my intention. Because Im a sneaky person. Sly like a fox. And "sah-pleye-zing" like some kinda ninja or some s--t. Hehe, did the dashes confuse you? Ninja'd again. Bwahahaha.

Then the monkey was all "cheyeah I totally am going to own that thing you have thar"

So yea. I have run out of things to say. Dont worry though. Bear with me and by Monday I'll give you something to laugh at/read. That will actually have a purpose or theme and be planned out any everything. And checked for typos. Who knows, it might even have those comics I promised. Sure, I dont know where I put the pieces of paper I drew on, but Ill find it. So CALM...DOWN. I know youse is all antsy and cant wait to read something Ive written. No, Im not cocky really, Im just pretending. Its a kind of defense mechanism. Like swearing or punching people in the mouth. So, yall have a good day and thanks for dropping by :)

pac man with a 'stache.
check out the others.

From School

My internet has died at home. Its kinda lame. I Have been drawing comics, with Fifi and whatnot (she even puts on an apron and hits me in the head..), but I just havent been updating. Ive had school, doan even judge me...

Naw kitty hugs. So. I was thinking about it, but I guess I dont have much to say about friends and others. I guess my brain is fried by my strange IT teacher, not to mention the slight (very slight) distraction of the latest Nerdy Show DnD episode. Wholemeal was all "judgey-mc-judge-judge" because of the bad old days of WoW and my nerdyness. Not sif I judge him for his strangeness. /shrug.

So yeah, that's it. That is all I have to say. I hope you dont mind, with my lack of blogging, not to mention teh decrease in quality of content. Im quite tired, but I dont know why. Have a good week. Im sure I'll post the comics soon :)

Thats one thing out of the way

No more words, Im tired.

Its almost over... well.. idk.

So... Im putting a couple "naw" images in today. Im not feeling particularly "naw" but Im not feeling particularly anything apart from tired. Ive been speed working lately and its no good.

Hey look! Its a make fun of god image! People in general drive me crazy and I think this makes sense.
Kinda cuz im all anti people and stuff... hehehe god is silly.

So a lil comfort in the 3rd picture. I blame people saying things that are all anti long distance, /shrug. nao something a lil deeper... are you happy?

Do you remember?

Sorry for the lack of updating. Ive had school. Im stressing out a little. My physics standard is not good, Im terrified of exams, and ... Im scared Im not paying enough attention to my family. By family, I mean all of it. I feel bad that I dont keep in touch with the people that live down the road, on both sides. I miss my little brothers so much that when I saw the birthday card that they gave my brother, I cried. I miss them so much. Its the older ones birthday today. Hes 10 and Im scared Im going to miss the celebration because of some stupid thing we have at school on the same day. Wholemeal was guilt tripping a little because of it... goodness, I hope it's in the evening.. or in the afternoon.. /sigh.
So I was thinking about what to blog about.. and I have no idea. Well... Im downloading the Persepolis movie, I took a picture of my "peace and love" earrings I got at Bondi last year, Im going to watch a movie in a bit, and Milkshake decided to be all lame and went idle on gmail. Im still working off my netbook because my brothers pc is too far away from the modem to use the ethernet cord that actually works, so I get to use the internet WHENEVER I WANT. The gay thing is that Persepolis was going to take two days to be downloaded, and my brother was silly enough to pause the download ALL DAY yesterday and so I was thoroughly ticked off. I also got angry at work today because the people in charge of things like the programme schedule and the news script didnt do their job so I was very upset and frustrated after I was confused. So that's about it.. Peace and love to all y'all :)

Peace and Love :)

so sipping cocacola and doing some hommerk.

Oh hai! Im updating from the netbook... I just finished re-arranging my room, which meant shifting around furniture like my desk and bed. ill need to shift the dresser apparently "to let the air in". Thats just silly cuz teh air doesnt get in anyway. SO had a long day and i still need to do some physics and take a look see at my EE just in case. Ah well, Ill get up early in the morning to look at the EE, or check it on the bus in the morning.. because I have a handy dandy netbook like that :)

So nothing much apart from Im tired, I miss people and Im not a fan of sleeping in the evening because then my head gets all weird and i have a funny feeling in my mouth that bothers me. So, listening to yellow submarine for the billionth time, and trying to do physics. The movie isnt distracting me, im just finding the science difficult.. stupid circuits. They are difficult to understand. So here I leave y'all, with Fifi and a smudged comic :D

The holidays are gone...

Im tired.. but I must stay up, and pretend that I have work to do to put my body back into the groove of school. I finally got rid of the stubborn last 8 words in my darn EE. Im so happy! I also miss Wholemeal. Is so sucky that I barely get to see him... /sigh. But Im not dwelling, because life shouldnt be wasted on "the dwells".

Honestly, I have no idea what to blog about. I dont want to make a long, sad post about anything, or trip on anyone, or just write about anything. I guess I will do the dwells. Im going to write about what I'll miss about the holidays.

Im going to miss sitting around in my pajamas, eating icecream sandwiched between cookies, and reading myself to sleep. Im not going to be able to eat nice lunches in town or see Wholemeal (im guessing, Im not so sure...). Im going to have to ram as much sleep into my nights, inbetween school, work and usual people things like eating. Im not glad that I'll have to start study from tomorrow but Im glad that the EE is almost done with (as in, Im handing it in soon). Im definitely going to miss the sleeping in part of the day and being able to wear whatever I want. I guess this all means that I cant wait to grow up and not have to deal with anything like stupid school or my mam... /shrug

Oh hai.

Sorry for the Emo.. it had to go somewhere..

Hey there! Emo comic coming your way! I guess its quite not-very-good how attached I am to wholemeal now.. but thats ok.. Im sure Ill get over it eventually.. Had an interesting day, with the roaming around a teeny bit, and getting the supermarketing done is less than 10 minutes because Im a no-nonsense person when it comes to shopping (because Im relatively impatient...). After the shopping, I lazed about at home, then cooked in the afternoon.. Im hungry but I dont think Im allowed to touch the food.. conundrum.

Yes...it's all i am.

So.. I really hate staying at home. It is gay. No.. Im going to stop using that word in that sense. There is nothing wrong with being gay. I change what I said to : I dont like staying at home because I get bored and feel lonely. I hate it. Ah well. I guess it's one of those things I have to live with I spose...

lookit! Im being deep nao with teh image posting..

I have the good ol' netbook back

Sure, its hard to sleep when im lying in bed and could be on facebook at the same time, but... Im sure I'll turn off the computer when i need to... that is why my eyes hurt too much to see anything properly.. I guess.
Was watching this and its sequel, because wholemeal made me. Why? Because hes a spaz... an awesome spaz, but a spaz nonetheless :) I recommend everyone sees it for a little brain down-time.
So... Im getting to be a little boring. I spent most of my day at home, sure some of it was spent not on my own... but as a new-adult I should be out on the town, mucking about pretending to be window shopping and being all round aimless.. but no. Instead I stay at home, doing dishes and pretty much guising work.. Is terrible but true.
So Im going to listen to some friends and feel sad because im relatively far away from the person who makes me uber happy... but then Ill feel better because of the memory of him being right here.. miss you, scratchyface :)

I broke the "im not going to blog" thing

Okay, first of all, Fifi has not nothing to do with the name Felix. Fifi is from the Metropolis manga, thankyouverymuch. Oh, and i went off about Max a little. Max is a-freaking-dorable :D I love him :)

Im having some trouble sleeping...

So I decided to blog. I know I said that I wouldnt have time to do this... but guess what? Its midnight and I cant sleep. I mean, my head is a little bothered, but apart from that im happy.

Im going to tell a story now. I need to clear my head. There was once a little person who never knew what it wanted. It thought every day, and every day there was something different. At first, the person wanted to be adventurous and drive a race car. This was around the time that the little person discovered just how silly school was. So this person looked for other things that it could do that didnt need school; a cleaner or a farmer? Which could the little person do? The little person got a little bit older and realised that it could not avoid this thing called school, and it began to dream bigger. Perhaps, thought the little person, I could be a lawyer and help people who are in trouble! But as soon as the little person realised that law school was expensive and would take many years, it gave up with that dream. Also, the little person figured that people should fix their own messes. Perhaps, thought the little person a while later, I could be a marine biologist and fix the coral reefs! The little person then realised that it was hopeless at sciences, and put away that dream too. Sad things happened to the little person, it lost its grandfather. I know, thought the little person, Ill be a doctor and find a way to save people like grandpa. But no, medical school required sciences and would take longer than law school... so the little person put that away too. Years went but, the little person got closer to being a person. It was told that it could be a lawyer, a doctor, a chemist, a teacher, and nurse, a pilot and many many other things. The little-ish person always put away these imposed dreams. They arent what I want, thought the little-ish person. More years went by, and the little-ish person worked at a few places, and became a full person. The person thought, I want to change the world. The person wanted to run a media outlet. It seemed like a proper enough dream. But there was always one dream that the person, now not so little at all, would pull out from time to time. The dream of being like its father, of being a dreamer, an artist. Always the person put this dream away saying that it wouldnt be smart, or practical, or that the person would never be successful; the person wasnt the right person for that. But as I said, every now and again, the person pulls out that dream and hugs it tight. Its a happy dream. That person has realised that the only dreams worth turning into truths, into reality, are the dreams that make people happy. Now, as I tell you this, this person, now not really little, has put this dream away, but dreams of a bigger happiness. A happiness with a who, not a what. Would that dream be something that the person puts away?

I couldnt be bothered to actually write anything.

So. I didnt really want to write much, so i drew what you see above. I couldnt be bothered to draw properly either, so thats why it looks as if im made of sticks, as im seriously not built that way (doanchaknow). I tried to draw a cat... Im not very good at them. Was at the request of Wholemeal... So yea. Next week Im not going to force myself to blog in between all the work that needs doing, all the school stuff I need to attend to and trying to squeeze some fun in there too. I know I can manage my time in that way. I will make sure that I can anyway :)