Stuff Ive Made Lately...

So here's what Ive been doing lately..

 So Ive been working on making makeup ads into stencils.. hehe.. the one above was when wasnt in the happiest mood hahaha... but just adjusted levels a bit... used sliver spray paint so thats why it might look a little odd.

This one (above) was also a makeup ad,  but used marker to get teh stencilled stuff out because was avoiding my sad can of silver spraypaint...

so i bought markers and told wholemeal: "TELL ME WHAT TO DRAWWUHHH". so he said 'draw one really confused man". im not sure if he meant a or one really confused man, because in Fiji English its the same thing.. as in "thets one gewwd place to eat".

And heres a little doodle of me :) i started trying to exercise, wasnt well this morning so missed out going for a walk, but in general am somewhat enjoying the idea. not the action so much haha...

so yes, im trying to avoid long, angry, weepy posts because i dont really have much to be angry and weepy about and theres no point is there? its not that good an idea haha, the internet has enough emos :)

stay tuned for some more stuff.

maybe.

From Imgfav with love...

So.. have some imgfav gold ive found recently :)

(Still I rise - this will forever remind me of my year 12 english teacher..)

(Slutwalk - one day, suva will catch up)

(10 things i hate about you poem)

(the pans labyrinth thing..)

Havent posted much... why you ask?

I dont know really. I guess Ive been doing other things, not so much writing, contemplating or anything.. i've been playing videogames mostly. Sleeping is my #3 thing on my mind, after wholemeal and videogames.

I finished the second dragon age game before my brother, as i did with fable 3. ive been home a lot more than he, to be fair. so i go back to finishing the first dragon age which i didnt get to do because he buggered about with the DLCs and borked it.

Im having fun in Dragon Age and trying my hardest not to use a walkthrough or FAQ. Despite frustration, I did the gauntlet puzzle thing with the bridge all on my own. I did use one, however, to figure out who gets what gift.

So apart from my lame videogamingness, i have been leaving my house to do errands, supermarketing and work so its not like ive shut myself off from reality.

Much.

Anyway, better get back to the console..

Ciao :D

Dreams.

The other night I had this very odd dream. It was either uber symbolic, because I have now passed the “tender teen years” trial, successfully becoming 19, and I can now neither call myself a young woman or a lady. Anyway, the dream I had was in a familiar setting, I’d had dreams of these magic pools of water on these caves that appeared in my dreams in the garden at the house I lived in with my dad, stepmother and brothers. I was surrounded by all the “adult” people I knew and I remember saying out loud that I had had friends come over to the magic place when I was much younger and what a sad state the pools were in then.

They were sad, the levels were low, the magic seemed a day away from being dried up, the caves were crumbling, and the older friends in my dream didn’t want to be there. So they left, and it was me, feet in the water, being beckoned by these friends, promised a more mature, better kept location.

I guess I had been tripping again on nutmeg, which has happened only once before and the effect both times were very slight and only affected dreams. On the over hand, it could’ve been a kind of stand by my subconscious saying “grow up, you daft monkey”. The times have changed, I have outgrown the pool and the magic would no longer work for me. I need a different refuge, I need to grow up and I have people there to help me grow. I have friends (yes, I barely see them but I have them... somewhere), I have a significant other and I have my family.

But most importantly, I have me. I have me realizing the need to grow. I have me wanting to grow. That’s the hard part done, right?