So am nomming stuff. Some honey stars, chocolate, i has some mountain dew too. ive had a lot of jelly/jello and half a bag of CC's. i get hungry. sure it's a lot. i also had no money so one, i have too, of my vegetarian friends bought me a pie. we then proceeded to have a discussion about chicken juice. i was referring to gravy, but accidently said chicken juice and then we continued to call it that. i also had a very unpractical day. i havent done much homework this week. i wrote some english stuff, the final which is due tomorrow, but still havent finished it.

so had a crazy dream this morning. it started on a bus, where i helped this crazy fat lady with her kids. one was a little girl, one a boy with a weird shaped head, and a pair of siamese twins, which were more melded together than joined. they shared a body, but there were 2 faces where there should have been just one. the lady let me hang with her kids, but didnt want them back. i forced them back and went into the next room. after a while i was looking for the kids because i was worried and found a newborn laying on the floor crying, i picked it up and saw that the fat lady wasnt fat; the bady was hers. i gave her her baby and yelled at her. i woke up but fell back asleep and dreamt that i was at the school canteen and saw a friend of mine, who has really long hair, kind of a blond fro that grows down. he had short hair so i freaked out a little but woke up and had to have a shower for school.

So time to go finish my honey stars and chocolate. :D

the end!!

facade

i send a facade email. masks are gay. especially metaphoric masks. and i hate hate hate in teh strongest uses of teh words being lied to. what else dont i like?

i dont like being avoided. i also hate being confronted. i am a paradox in myself. terrible consequence: am isolated. i dont actually mind though. i am comfortable around no one. like now for instance, when hardly anyone is home.

Jonathon Coulton is my new idol. i like his music. it makes me smile most of the time. 'code monkey' is my new theme tune. next to 'tom cruise crazy'. and am going crazy over love.

not that love is my problem. writing about love is the problem. i am uber unskilled and unfamiliar with pretty much and degree of love. it's all very new to me. love is hugs. love is whispers in teh dark. love is texting at 4 in the morning about homework. love is 2 ways. love is gradual. love is not just being told what to do, but allowing extra imput. love is respect. love is... complicated.

love is also insane. in all forms.

the end i suppose.

Because i has awesome shoes!

So thats my awesome shoe!!

i has two.

they are boot-ee-full

:D

Boats and School Balls

so had a long week, of course. school is a b**h, and i can't stand how much pressure is put on teenagers especially around the ball. i had a great time, but supposed that i made a stupid choice. but i suppose i'll put that behind me. "i'm on shrooms!!!!" :D

i'm also trying to get used to my new shoes that i bought for the ball.

one day i'll blog about it because they're beautiful. they're my first girly shoes ever. and i'm so tired of things and am getting used to deep conversations with friends.

short posts. Duh. :D

Half life

im disappointed today. mainly because i went everywhere and no one, as in absolutely anyone, has black eyeliner or concealer. ergo, today i am angry. that and i got hit in the head with a french book because my head was in the path of throwingness or some gay make up expression like that.

now my brother's all, "i'm dying", or some such gay shit. i am really angry in retrospect. because it's all very frustrating. school is damn stupid and i see absolutely no point in giving a damn about half life or analysing a book or long divison of polynomials. i see absolutely no point and it just makes me want to lie down and die for a while, so i dont have to get up and walk in the cold to get a bus that i have to wait for by myself.

coldyplay is definately not helping. yay for beer as it clearly is going to be the highlight of my day when i eventually do my physics experiment. BLAH.