Saturday, April 24, 2010

Im a little sick.

And i dont know why. Ive been a little sick all week, and it got worse today. i went to work, but fel too sick to do much apart from try to coach the new girl. i reeled off what did what and managed a friendly (well.. it was what i was going for) smile and then fell into a cab to die on my couch. is kinda lame. had one of those really open discussions on and offline last night. well.. they were two separate ones. i felt really sad afterwards. lifes a bitch, dont cha know?

Friday, April 23, 2010

I mentioned the haircut i did myself...


So to the left is a kwootish lil sketch.
scissors are freaking hard to draw.
/shrug.
i just had a really bad past 20 minutes.
i uhm.. boiled over.
not with anger per se.
just... emotion is general.
i need a hug.. :(

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Survivra?

epic stuff of epic epicness.

im trying to figure out a name for my D&D character. and yes. D&D. Im excited, akshully. I love the idea of RPing, and i love RPGS, although ive only had the console experience. Ive played MMORPGS, as i think ive mentioned WoW a couple times, but my brother and his friends i think are starting to play. Ive always just wanted to be part of this uber awesome thing. So.. im going to be boring by making a female elf ranger. ive already figured out what i have to look at to win, like wisdom, strength and dexterity, and looked through the handbook to figure out what feat i what, and what items ill be starting off with and the like, and i think i almost have a name. dude, i just did french homework where i had to conjugate the verbs vivre and survivre. so... elf names have Vs and things like that... so i think itll be okay for now. until i call her Bob or something, heh.
In general, today was long. my mam took a while to pick me up from school, after a stupid CAS thing... the stupid children at the CAS thing i do were all spaz and were painting themselves and stuff. Im high on coffee now, and im not sure whats going on. im tired, but i cant close my eyes. also, im silly because ive had two cups of coffee, and now.. well... i havent done any maths homeowrk, but ive figured out my portfolio... thingy. i dont know. im tired.

look at those evil little things.
getting paint everywhere.
reminds me of my afternoon. :(

Monday, April 19, 2010

last day of the break.


i havent finished the day, but already i went to sort out my school fees, and have done some homework already. sure, ive had two weeks to do all this stuff, but to hell with that. i havent been able to turn my brain on and now i have. Ive done work, yes, and i know what im doing most of the time.. but all i have to say now is that i wish we never had holidays. it fracks with my mind and makes me lazy. Also, facebook is evil. people are also lame (not milkshake, tho, just in case he's reading... one can never be too careful). im happy though, because i've seen kickass, and i think that ive had a pretty good holiday. despite everything that has one wrong. wrong being that thing that fell apart royally just before end of holidays, being stood up by a somewhat gay friend, not really dropping teh cancer sticks, the uber load of work, getting sick, missing ryssa, etc etc.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

do you believe in a thing called love?

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to start of the love post, lets have a love-potato!

I know someone who does. He claims not to have any faith in anything. but he has a little mind and doesnt realise that you dont need a religion to believe in something. the bad thing about websites like facebook is that you can talk to people about certain things that you'd never say out loud. for example, how this person, who will call... Milkshake, would go on about how much he was obsessed with this chick, and how much he liked her, and i would kinda tell him off for not doing anything properly about telling her. that isnt to say that he didnt try to tell her, because i think he did, but the universe was against him, in the way that he didnt get around to doing anything proper. yes. teh proper is on purpose. and the other day he was asking what kind of music would turn a chick on. im sorry, milkshake, but music doesnt do that for me. I did try to recommend stuff, like you belong to me by jason wade, which i thought was always a little creepy but sweet in general. i think that i will follow you into teh dark is also a sweet-ish song, as well as gotta have you by the weepies. in general, i hope Milkshake one day finds the girl that'll stick by him. sure, he's usually an annoying little thing, but who doesnt deserve a lil happy loving time? hehe, i mean, even with his crazy hair (which isnt as bad as mine, even on my good hair days) and body like a bean pole, he's got humour and love on his side. you go girl! i mean.. guy! :D

http://fashionablygeek.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/03/raptor-jesus.png
i thought milkshake would appreciate the lols of raptor jesus

Saturday, April 17, 2010

I wasnt...


picked up. so ... i spent time with my brother and hid friends, which wasnt uber bad.. but couldve been better.
so... had work and the usual today, although my mam bought me some new stuff, like an anklet and a onesie (thats a one piece thingy. is like top and shorts, but together lol). then there was the shopping for food, and work and the like. im tired. i have blisters from relatively awesome new shoes. my left foot is weird. mk... church tomorrow mebbe.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Pouty? Mebbe ..


Guess who has an image problem?? Well, i raised my hand and shook it (yes, liek i just dont care :P ) and that means: "yes. i have an image problem". I'm sure this is a common problem, not just anywhere in particular, but everywhere in general. Dont believe me? Take a look in the mirror and tell me that there isnt a part of you that youd rather change. Dont lie to me, i know that theres something. thats perfectly fine if you do! personally, i have a similarity to Charlotte York, where i hate my thighs! Theyre uber huge, IMO. Ah well! Tis just something i've tried to change. but then i end up giving up because sometimes, i can be bothered to exercise most of the time. also, im flat. apparently it runs in the genes. greeeeat. i'll live with it. i also hate my hair. IS EVIL. In fact, there are a few blog posts about my hair. they arent the main subject of the posts, but they find their way in there. in short, im usually complaining about the retarded thing on my head. i hate it in general. its poofy when its short, and its too hot and literally heavy when is long. neggh. stupid being a girl ness thing. also. image ? this means clothes. i have an issue with the clothes i own. i have too few things that i actually like wearing. what do i like? jeans (to hide my legs, akshully) and tees. yes. tee shirts. cotton good! :D and.. well, i have the occasionally skirt for a hot day or church. apparently i dress like a tomboy. i have no real issues with this. i love my clothes. i also like the idea of wearing girly clothes, but i feel like mutton dressed as lamb in them. is like when i put on makeup, i feel fake. i draw the line at eyeliner. i dont even like lip balm. feels weird. yep. so i look like a boy: flat, shortish hair, tees and jeans, my posture is no help. but i do love earrings, fancy flat shoes, bangles, and i have a wide hip type area, thanks to my funny belly and thighs. so almost a proper chick. :) all i need is me some arm candy. but thats another blog post :)

KICKASS!

Well, im in a pretty good mood today, despite evil cramps. yes, i just told the internet about my cramps. ah well. i was apparently throwing murderous looks at people today, at the height of my pain. this is according to my brother, anyway. i wouldnt believe him. so above is after the movie. it was freaking awesome. i mean.. sure there are hollywood changes i dont think i agree with, like kickass getting the girl, but as a movie, it is very much kickass. i loved it. also, i was happy on sugar, so... yea. and then there was the supermarketing today, which was okay. apart from the fact that i couldnt find the cornflour i need, and the bleddy sugar was only in 4kg packs. who needs that much sugar? seriously. also, MHCC is retarded. yes, the building. the supermarket upsets me. is totally dictatored out. you can only go into the supermarket at one point now, and they blocked it off with railings. so.. when youre leaving, after getting your frozen goods, you have to go around the gawshdarn aisles to get to the checkout counters. is silly. i think whoever came up with that idea needs to be smacked upside the head. or be high fived in the face. check that image link for the lols :) myea. now i think i'll cook dinner and have a shower. because i can! :)
http://goldlabelgoods.files.wordpress.com/2010/02/kick-ass-movie-poster.jpg

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Love you daddy

So was my dads three years today. we didnt go to the cemetery. we didnt have any get together type things. i got a hug text from a friend who lives in the west. it made me smile. so yes. i didnt get up to much today, apart from doing some shopping, then window shopping with my mam, after some brunch, and then hanging around with my brother till the three of us watched a movie. now am just playing about online. yay aimlessness!
also, i spent most of last night sorting out my room. this meant that i put everything "in its place" (i.e into drawers or hanging them up in my closet-y thing, or putting hats on the back of my door and putting my earrings onto an old beanie so i can pick them in the morning (seeing as i have collected a few pairs, and some of them arent part of pairs and so on). i also tidied my desk next to my bed so now there is space to actually do things. is interesting. im also in desperate need of a new mirror. why? well... the one i do have is strange and only for checking outfits (speaking of which i also need a new mannequin. i have half of one i use to hang necklaces... it would nice to have something to help me work out ensembles with) and i need something i can use for things like checking my crazy mane of hair, or to put in contacts or put on eyeliner, etc etc. i had one, but it fell off my wall and broke. mebbe i can get whats left of that and attach it to the dead imac... hmn, theres a thought.
so yes. im just contemplating the suckiness or certain situations. yes, like the one where the only guy to actually be blunt with things lives overseas. sure he says that he would of asked me out, but figures nothing can happen because of where he lives. outcome? slight emoness due to situation and endless teasing from kind-of-gay friend because i met overseas guy through him. why do i meet so many gay people through ryss? (this is girl who lives in west who i met years ago. dude, totally awesome friend) i have no idea why, but is fine for me. darn you, universe! making me have horrible relationship history. i suppose itll make a good story when im 67 and alone though. "yarrgh, that darn universe, a four month one, then a week, then it was nothin' cuz he didnt live here!". my cats (yeah, i might end up a cat lady) will loathe me for those stories. theyll roll their catty eyes at me and meow for better noms.
yay for getting through another year! hopefully itll get better. it referring to life. it prolly wont. ah well :)

Friday, April 9, 2010

I have a friend who wears pink flip flops.


he says that theyre just old red ones. i dont believe him. :)


So.. i was bored. I know it looks horrible.. ah well :)

So i almost got a call today


But i didnt answer my phone quick enough. Also, Im trying to figure myself out. I'm feeling very lost. I think that might be because I dont think i like who i am. Ah well, maybe someone will like me one day. Its dads three years tomorrow. I dont have anyone to hug. Cept mebbe my brother but he smells funny. ... negh.

Monday, April 5, 2010

Easter has been good i spose...

well, i got to hang out with my old friend, definitely my best :) we've been friends for years and i miss not having her in suva... at least she comes around every once in a while :)
also, met a few new people... and was interesting, though technically, of the few i met, i was already familiar with. also met with someone i cannot stand (due to a childhood grudge) who started calling me shortcake. sure, im no weed between blades of grass, but at least i have more brain power than him and a couple of his friends together.
also, had a lot of chocolate which helped me feel better these past few days. i love chocolate. tastes far too good and the good thing is i replaced the sads with the happy stuff in chocolate. i love those happy brain thingies. so... all in all, i like easter. with the chocolate in teh fridge, the rainy afternoons and power naps that make you feel happy when you get up, but make you really want to have a shower.